Sugar Beaches and Stout Oaks: A Navy Life in Monterey

Oak_beach2The recent passing of my father allowed me to reflect on my life with my parents. My father devoted his life to the Navy, and unwittingly, so did my mother. In honor of Memorial Day and my father’s service, here’s a piece I wrote for his funeral. Please read through to the end.

In many ways my life began and ended in Monterey, book-ended by the lives of my parents. As a child, I walked the sugar-white beaches of Carmel holding my mother’s hand. On those crystalline sands, I shared my mother’s hopes and sweet dreams. We lived in Camelot and sang Puff the Magic Dragon. In the late 1950s, my mother Millie was a young housewife and had high aspirations for herself and her young family. She met my father, Gene, during the Korean war before his six-month deployment on the USS Princeton. After flying 50 combat missions he returned, they were married and had two boys, my older brother Craig and me. In Carmel, they were enjoying the peacetime while my father completed his MS degree in Aeronautical Engineering at the Naval Postgraduate School. The times were changing and my mother had thoughts of a career after raising us boys and a life outside of the grueling Navy lifestyle my father loved. Like the white sands under our feet, the future was bright. 


The Tissot family, early 1960s.

But the Vietnam War pulled us away from those bright beaches and paused my mother’s dreams as my father began his meteoric rise through the ranks of the Navy. As an aviator his duties grew to include squadron XO, then CO, then CAG (Commander Air Group). As the air war escalated in the mid-1960s he flew over 259 combat missions in Vietnam before moving into aviation command. 

As a young boy, I knew little of those missions but was acutely aware that my father was gone for most of my childhood. To stay connected we exchanged audio tape “letters” and even played chess in an attempt to bridge the vast gulf between us. There were exciting moments, like when he flew in on his plane and we ran out to meet him; and high points, like when he became the Captain of the USS Enterprise. But during the rare times he was home and we spent time together he carried an officer’s edge and his exacting standards cut deep into my fragile soul. For most of my life, he was more figure than father;  he was hard, distant, and tough. At times I felt like Ben in the The Great Santini, who experienced stern military discipline from his father with no room for his sensitive nature.

Meanwhile, my mother dragged us around as our home base shifted through 11 places over 21 years. After Carmel we moved to Norfolk, Lemoore, San Diego, McLean, Idaho Falls, San Diego, Alameda, Alexandria, San Diego, Subic Bay, Pearl Harbor. I remember great moments and devastating moments as our nomadic Naval life took a long-term toll on my mother. Although she rejoiced in my father’s stellar accomplishments, and her son’s burgeoning lives, she paid a heavy price for holding down the fort and trying to make each new house special. And she was amazing. But my mother  paid the emotional price of his absence from our lives while he served our country.


Our family in 1966 during the height of the Vietnam air war.

On top of that, as my father’s responsibilities grew, so did my mother’s, and she faced the reality of watching for the Navy car with the chaplain in the back. We lost many friends in those days and it was her job to console those who lost their husbands while carrying her own fears about my father. For decades she carried the banner for MIAs and POWs; the ultimate horror for military families. Navy families are tight and supportive, connected by a crisscrossing of moves and overlapping lives. But those were long difficult years. 


During those turbulent times we often visited Carmel, searching for those white beaches. But the sands had shifted, much like my mother’s troubled life. I recall one winter’s storm-ravaged beach with kelp piled high on the shore, forcing us to traverse unearthed cobbles. The cold, raw beach hurt our feet and chilled us to the bone, but my mother put her head into the wind and forged ahead, dragging my small body through the squall. Another time, between deployments, we walked the beach in the summer with my father, a rare experience. The sands were briefly bright again , like the promise of a beach full of pristine sand, and our future looked promising. But as time marched on and my mother rode the seasons of our family’s Naval life in the 1960s and 1970s, she lost her own dreams and placed her hopes and ambitions in her husband and two sons.

Fifty years after those first Carmel days, following my father’s retirement as a Rear Admiral which included three major command posts and a distinguished appointment to the Golden Eagles, my parents returned to Monterey to live in the hills of Corral De Tierra; a stunningly beautiful area that John Steinbeck called the Pastures of Heaven. Their well-earned home was surrounded by bright yellow-green meadows and majestic oaks that  touched the windows. At Corral De Tierra, they enjoyed their golden years with friends and family and watched my brother and I raise our five kids. In that house, and on the beaches of Carmel and Monterey Bay, my mother made peace with the unexpected arc of her life. As she watched her grandchildren grow she delighted in the stable homes of her son’s families; the one she always wanted but never had. During her last years, I realized she had sacrificed her dreams so we could our lives as we wanted and my mother  hopes were passed to me. She was truly the wind beneath our wings.


Corral De Tierra, the Pastures of Heaven, outside Monterey, California.

After she passed away I realized I really didn’t know my father, at least not in a personal sense. For most of my life, he was gone or absent and had become a stoic figure in my mind, like the lone stout oak on the top of a hill: rough, rigid, and surrounded by thorny leaves. He was impenetrable and unapproachable. He’d didn’t talk about the war unless asked, his phone calls set records for brevity, and it was difficult to find common ground for a discussion. Sports were neutral ground but the trials of our naval life were off limits. He was from another generation, old school, and he still maintained order and a military crispness to everything in his life.

But he had always been devoted to his family: he rarely forgot a birthday, he attended the graduation of every grandchild, and he cherished his family’s accomplishments with an ever expanding array of photos on his office walls. When I needed a kidney he stepped up without hesitation and gifted me a part of himself which I hold to this day. He was a strong presence in my life but remained distant.


In the years following my mother’s death, as we both began to soften towards each other, I developed a new relationship with my father. Slowly, he opened up and I began to see the man inside. The metaphor of a stout oak — rough and tough on the outside — still rang true, but I had missed the inside. He appeared rough because he was strong and proud of who he was and what he had accomplished. He had held on to the discipline that had ensured his success.  I realized that he was the one who had spent years running missions while pilots under his command died or were taken captive. He was the one who had spent years at sea defending his country while missing his family. He had watched as his beautiful his wife suffered through each new deployment. But he had held it all in — for us — because that’s what he was taught to do. For he was from the Greatest Generation and he was taught to support his family, the Navy, and his country — without complaint. And that’s what he did and who he was.

Poppies, lupine, and oaks, near El Portal, CA, USA

Photo: Michael Frye.

I saw that he had been there for me all along; his shining career a beacon to follow. Just by example, he had pushed all of us to achieve great things. He had cherished every accomplishment and loved all of us. Far from absent, he was a strong presence throughout my life, but one I couldn’t see. He was like a lone dark oak on the hillside in dawn’s fog-shrouded moments with nourishing water falling off its thorny leaves. He was like the lone oak that stood strong with sturdy pillars through fierce winter storms. Standing there all alone he helped bring the spring into our lives like the bright yellow poppies and blue lupines erupting in a celebration of life under an oak’s long limbs. Like an old tree in a grassy meadow, I finally saw that inside that stout oak was a heart of gold. Inside I saw a man standing proud, tall, and quiet, and strong for his family and his country.

And this week, as I walked the white beaches with my children and slept in my parent’s house among the oaks, I realized that I now hold the hopes for my children’s future. Now, they live in their own dreams because my parents had dedicated their lives to give us our freedom. My parents had absorbed the brunt of our turbulent life, and the constant shifting of our homes, while living with the reality that every military family faces: that one day my father might not come home. Thanks to them, and their service in the Navy and to their country, my life is my own and I live in a free country. Like the sugar beaches of Carmel and the stout oaks of Monterey, their dreams are forever a part of the landscape of my life.


  16 comments for “Sugar Beaches and Stout Oaks: A Navy Life in Monterey

  1. Arthur chris Heer
    May 27, 2019 at 7:39 am

    Brian, very touching article. I have a somewhat similar situation but different. My father went into the ministry, we moved from ca. To ks. To in.
    My grand father was Arthur tissot, mother constance irene Tissot Heer. I am in several pictures that you have posted in the past. Taken on the ranch in chino. May God bless you in your health needs.

    • May 27, 2019 at 3:09 pm

      Thanks Arthur. Always nice to hear from family and discover similar paths through life

  2. Shirley Menchu
    May 27, 2019 at 8:45 am

    Thank you for sharing your families journey with us. You are such a wonderful writer.
    I feel so fortunate to have known your parents.

  3. Mark Hixon
    May 27, 2019 at 10:51 am

    Aloha Brian— Mahalo for sharing this. I continue to be amazed by the parallels in our Naval aviator family histories. You are my eloquent mirror, my brother from another mother. I will be forever grateful for our long friendship. Much Love—Mark

    • May 27, 2019 at 3:13 pm

      Dear Mark, It’s amazing how we share such parallel lives. You are an awesome lifelong friend

    • Michael Silva
      May 28, 2019 at 2:04 pm

      Sometimes we are unable to see the whole picture of our lives until we step outside of ourselves. This is a very hard thing to do sometimes. It’s easier as we get older, but for some it never happens. Glad you lived long enough to see it.

      • June 2, 2019 at 10:45 am

        Thanks Mike and you’re so right. Reflection is hindsight but you need space in your life to do it. Glad I got the opportunity

  4. Suzanne McDaniel Charlton
    May 27, 2019 at 11:01 am

    Thank you for describing our lives so well…my father, CDR Charles McDaniel, CO of VF 51…also flew with your father..yes we waited for many years for dad to come home, Korea and Vietnam wars…he died of agent orange…however, he loved flying and said he would do it all over again…for him “a good day was flying in his F-8 Crusader jet”…

    • May 27, 2019 at 8:59 pm

      Thanks Suzanne and I remember that our fathers shared some good times flying together. Very sorry to hear your father died from agent orange, that’s awful

  5. Jeff Patton
    May 28, 2019 at 1:50 pm

    Thank you Brian for your most recent post reflecting your life growing up and your relationship with your parents. I loved your Dad and Mom. Sorry to have missed your Dad’s recent celebration of life. You’re a really good writer and I have always enjoyed your posts. Sandie forwards them to Greg, Bucks and me.

    Blessings to you, Susan and your family.



    • June 2, 2019 at 10:43 am

      Thanks Jeff and I hope your family is doing well

  6. Eric Dexter
    May 30, 2019 at 5:08 am

    Thanks for keeping these posts coming. I really appreciate these long-view musings on life, as I’ve been making a lot of big decisions about career and family recently and it’s really helpful to get some perspective from somebody who’s a little further down the road.

    • August 31, 2019 at 9:55 am

      Great to hear my writings are helping your perspectives on life. It helps me just to put the words down. Hope you career and family and meshing well

  7. June 1, 2019 at 3:24 pm

    Thank you Brian, for sharing this beautiful, eloquent, and elegant tribute to your family and to all who serve the public. Such empathy and wisdom come only after time, insight and introspective that few achieve.

    • June 2, 2019 at 10:47 am

      Thanks Gary, I appreciate your comments and hope you are well

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